Finals
25 Sep 2010 Leave a Comment
Forgot I had a blog for a while. Then I remembered. Then I was confused about how to navigate around WordPress. Now I’m organizing things, which includes going through old drafts, either deleting or posting. This one is from 2008.
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With finals week just around the corner, I’ve been spending plenty of time at the library, and I haven’t been able to get over how packed it’s been and how frantic some students look (particularly at certain hours in the night). Within these past few days, I’ve been reluctantly getting my work done, stressing and complaining about the amount that needs to get done, deceiving myself with the claim that my workload justifies my reaction. I’m treating schoolwork as if it’s some kind of burden, when it’s no burden at all, it’s too great a blessing.
During a break tonight, I was sitting on a bench outside, next to a fountain, sipping my tea, enthralled by the beauty of my campus, at such a fine institution, where my only job is to become educated. Oh, what a burden it is to be in my shoes! I think of children in this world, the circumstances they endure, what they’d give for an opportunity to receive higher education, or for a meal… and then I think back on the packed library, the distressed faces, my own grumbling, I mean, what can we do, it’s just such a difficult week…
I often enter class or handle schoolwork with a negative attitude, sometimes claiming that I’m not learning anything lasting or valuable anyway. Or, there are times when I’ll act as if I have some sort of claim to certain circumstances, and if things don’t go my way, I have a right to dissatisfaction, when it’s all grace. It’s so sad when we look at our lives and desire more or display discontent with what we do have, when we have more than we deserve as it is, regardless of how it is. And even sadder when handling gifts such as studying and school, we find cause for grumbling.
