Day 78?

Putting off TV is pretty easy when you have 40 pages to write and you were born with writer’s block. I didn’t realize it when I hit the one-month mark. Then came holidays, travels…you know, things to do, people to see. Pretty easy resolution.

In order news, happy new year. May it be lived for our great and worthy God and His good pleasure and glory.

All to leave and follow You

It seems from every direction I’m called and wooed toward something less than missions-mindedness, and undoubtedly away from my Savior.

The irrational desire for that which is all in all vanity and worldliness rises in potency and seeks to reign. Its fate is eagerly awaited. It is to be crushed by the supremacy of Christ.

But the experience is painful and humbling. That may be my understatement of the year.

Give me grace, Lord, and with joy and pleasure, I will fight this.

Jesus, I my cross have taken,
All to leave and follow Thee.
Destitute, despised, forsaken,
Thou from hence my all shall be.
Perish every fond ambition,
All I’ve sought or hoped or known.
Yet how rich is my condition!
God and heaven are still my own.

Let the world despise and leave me,
They have left my Savior, too.
Human hearts and looks deceive me;
Thou art not, like them, untrue.
O while Thou dost smile upon me,
God of wisdom, love, and might,
Foes may hate and friends disown me,
Show Thy face and all is bright.

Go, then, earthly fame and treasure,
Come disaster, scorn and pain
In Thy service, pain is pleasure,
With Thy favor, loss is gain
I have called Thee Abba Father,
I have stayed my heart on Thee
Storms may howl, and clouds may gather;
All must work for good to me.

Day One

Today marks the start of my one month resolution to forgo TV, movies… those precious episodes of Law & Order that NetFlix has made available on instant…


Why would I do such a thing, you ask? The reason is because I think TV is evil.

Okay, not really.

The reason is pretty simple. I didn’t ruminate over this decision for hours. It went something like this:

Thought #1: TV has so wastefully absorbed so much of my time.
Thought #2: No more TV.

Instead of watching Law & Order today, I read Edward’s Resolutions. Here I am championing my No-TV resolution, and pow! (That’s the sound of a jaw dropping to the ground, in case you couldn’t tell). Puts my resolution into perspective, if you know what I mean.


Forgot I had a blog for a while. Then I remembered. Then I was confused about how to navigate around WordPress. Now I’m organizing things, which includes going through old drafts, either deleting or posting. This one is from 2008.


With finals week just around the corner, I’ve been spending plenty of time at the library, and I haven’t been able to get over how packed it’s been and how frantic some students look (particularly at certain hours in the night). Within these past few days, I’ve been reluctantly getting my work done, stressing and complaining about the amount that needs to get done, deceiving myself with the claim that my workload justifies my reaction. I’m treating schoolwork as if it’s some kind of burden, when it’s no burden at all, it’s too great a blessing.

During a break tonight, I was sitting on a bench outside, next to a fountain, sipping my tea, enthralled by the beauty of my campus, at such a fine institution, where my only job is to become educated. Oh, what a burden it is to be in my shoes! I think of children in this world, the circumstances they endure, what they’d give for an opportunity to receive higher education, or for a meal… and then I think back on the packed library, the distressed faces, my own grumbling, I mean, what can we do, it’s just such a difficult week…

I often enter class or handle schoolwork with a negative attitude, sometimes claiming that I’m not learning anything lasting or valuable anyway. Or, there are times when I’ll act as if I have some sort of claim to certain circumstances, and if things don’t go my way, I have a right to dissatisfaction, when it’s all grace. It’s so sad when we look at our lives and desire more or display discontent with what we do have, when we have more than we deserve as it is, regardless of how it is. And even sadder when handling gifts such as studying and school, we find cause for grumbling.

Psychological Theories . . . Accepted By Faith?

“Before you see a client, you have theories: theories about what is normal and abnormal, theories about motivation, theories about how we know, theories of right and wrong, and yes, theories about God. These assumptions . . . came from your culture, family, religious background, influential professors, graduate program, and many other factors. You have been indoctrinated in a set of presuppositions that are empirically unverifiable. You accept them by faith.”

Edward T. Welch, “A Discussion Among Clergy: Pastoral Counseling Talks With Secular Psychology,” The Journal of Biblical Counseling 13, no. 2 (1995): 24.

The Binding of Isaac

Genesis 22:1-3 After these things God tested Abraham and said to him, “Abraham!” And he said, “Here am I.” 2 He said, “Take your son, your only son Isaac, whom you love, and go to the land of Moriah, and offer him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains of which I shall tell you.” 3 So Abraham rose early in the morning, saddled his donkey, and took two of his young men with him, and his son Isaac. And he cut the wood for the burnt offering and arose and went to the place of which God had told him.

During my first quarter of taking biblical Hebrew as an undergrad, about seven weeks in or so, the professor had the class dive into BHS, reading from it for the last portion of each class. We began with Genesis 22. Upon reaching the end of the quarter, we knew that questions from the chapter would be on the final exam. The night before the exam, I was reading the passage for maybe the 40th time in the past 3 weeks, probably the 10th time that day alone, and reached the words “Abraham rose early in the morning” in verse 3. A knife to my heart.


Complaints have been rising in my heart this week, so this was a much needed rebuke to read today:

“If you read, ‘I want to get rid of the pain of this situation,’ you know that the agenda is probably wholly wrong. God may have brought a person into a painful situation in order to challenge, grow, and bless him. To be rid of it (at least for the present, or in the way he wishes) would be to dump God’s blessing overboard. What the Lord may want in a situation is to teach endurance (how to hang in there when the going gets tough), greater dependence on Him, or how to help others whom he could not if he were ‘rid of’ the painful circumstance.” – Jay Adams (Critical Stages of Biblical Counseling, p.40)

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